New Chapter has begun

So our family has began our new chapter in our lives and that new chapter is adding a new baby to it. That's right, little Kj was born on September 6, 2014 at 5:25pm. He weighed 6lbs 10oz measuring at a whole 20 inches long (no wonder I could feel his every move when I was pregnant, he was cramped). 

I will be posting my "birth story" here soon, so keep an eye out for that :-) 

Just a little bit of the birth experience and our first week as a family of four. My labor and dilvery were quite a bit different than my first baby, this one was much much smoother. The staff at McKay Dee Hospital were just absolutely amazing, I couldn't have asked for better care. 

When it was time to go home, i actually was "ready" to go home. Unlike my first baby where I had extremely bad anxiety and didn't want to leave the hospital and cried uncontrollably the entire drive home. This time around I asked if I could leave early, 5 hours early and I felt good about it. I just wanted to get home to start our new lives and get started on trying to figure everything out, now being a mom of two kids. 

I definently have my hands full with a newborn and a two year, things have been interesting that's for sure. When I took Kj into the doctors the day after I was discharged to get his billi test re-done he had score quite a bit higher than the hospital and required using the lights to help get things moving. My first baby had jaundice pretty bad too but they both pulled through just fine. I have to admit, those lights looked pretty cool. 

Looked like we had pimped out his bassinet lol he actually slept extremely well on those lights. Luckily he only needed them for those 24 hours and when we went back in, his levels had dropped 3.5 points. 

I was very proud of myself that I was able to take him to the doctors when he was 3 and 4 days old with no anxiety (his car seat seems so big that I don't like putting him in but that was all I was stressed about). My first baby, I couldn't leave my house for the first week because of anxiety (we had two deaths in the families while I was pregnant with my first baby my grandpa and my brother in law just within a month of each other, it was an extremely rough emotional time that I believe it had an effect on me that caused my anxiety). 

My sweet daughter has been adjusting pretty well, she absolutely loves her little brother and seriously gives him about 1,000 kisses a day, it's adorable. 

Don't get me wrong, she's definently been acting out a bit more and it hasn't been all smooth sailing but I am proud of the way she has been handling this new change. 

A couple "firsts" we experienced this week were things like, the two kids and myself going to the store, I was a little nervous but we had to go and nobody else was home so away we went and survived quite nicely. Gave both kids a bath at the same time, Kaili'a was in the bath tub and can basically do everything but wash and rinse her hair and Kj was in his own bath tub by her bath tub getting a wash cloth bath. It was a bit crazy and very busy but both kids got cleaned and ready for bed. Kj took a little bottle for grandma while Joseph and I went to the store by ourselves :-) I didn't leave Kaili'a with anyone until she was like 4 months old, I'll tell you what, even though it's only been a week in a half since the hubby and I had any alone time it was much needed and I'm so glad we were able to and get some us time even if it was at the grocery store. 

It's been a fun, challenging, interesting, sleepless week in a half but very enjoyable. I can not believe we've been blessed with another baby and we couldn't be more grateful! 

Here are a few photos of our week! 

Thank you for Reading, 

The Cancillas 

Had to take a break from social media for awhile, I wanted to just focus on my family and my healing. 

Only 2 more months

Only 2 more months until little Kj arrives, I can hardly believe it's that soon. With this pregnancy I knew I was pregnant, well basically when it happened, and so even though I knew from like day 1 I still feel like this pregnancy is just flying by. 

Having a busy, busy toddler to keep up with has definitely helped with moving time along. I'm noticing though how much harder this pregnancy is just because I have another child to run after. 

My first pregnancy had it's ups and downs like every pregnancy but I was going to Zumba classes 3-5 times a week, and was able to out last most the class. I was walking everyday at least a mile or more, this pregnancy is a completely different story. 

I don't know if it's because I'm pregnant with a boy this time and he is just sucking all the life and energy out of me, or if having a toddler is really just that much harder on my body. With Kaili'a I didn't have anyone to keep up with, play with, hold, or things like that. But I haven't been very active at all with this pregnancy, Zumba classes are a joke because I can't even get through half the class and then afterwards I am so completely exhausted for the remainder of the day. Walking was going well at first but now, forget walking very far because my body can't handle it. 

My body hurts in ways it did not last time, it hurts to pick things up that are too heavy (my daughter is getting to that point and it kills me that I can't hold her as much as she would like me to) and it hasn't made having a toddler that loves to be creative with what she plays with "aka, putting EVERYTHING all over the floors" and I can't reach things to put them away. 

I can't believe the differences though from being pregnant with a girl and now with a boy. With my first pregnancy I ended up gaining 36lbs and food was just amazingly delicious until the end. This pregnancy, so far, I've only gained 15lbs and I don't have half the appetite I did with my last pregnancy. 

I guess I'll be able to have an idea what I'm having with future pregnancies before we find out lol 

Even though it's been a struggle this past few months I can not wait to have our little baby boy. Being a stay at home mom can be extremely challenging at times but it's also extremely rewarding and I love that I have been blessed to be a mom. I learn new things about myself everyday ;-) 

Stay tuned for our maternity photo shoot we have! It's going to be so much fun having Kaili'a involved! 

Thank you for Reading, 

Tara