Journal entry.

I have an app that gives me suggestions on topics to write about in my journal. I was a lot better at journal keeping while pregnant with Kaili'a so this app had really helped me just take a few moments and write a little thought down. 

The topic of the week was "how will having a baby change your life?" I just wanted to share my thoughts with you briefly how I feel about it. 

Journal entry: "I don't think you can ever really know how having a baby will change your life. This is going to be my second baby and I am still clueless about how it's going to effect my life this time around and on top of having a toddler as well. I'm a little nervous but not as nervous as I thought I would be, I'm someone that if I think too long about something it can totally freak me out and give me loads of anxiety. So I'm trying to just prepare for what I can and then take things as they come, no need to stress about what hasn't happened yet or what might happen, right?"

Thank you for READING, 

Tara Cancilla 

*the app I use is called pregnancy WedMD and I downloaded it for free on my IPhone* 

Size does matter.

There comes a time in your life when you realize that size does matter, what time of your life is that you maybe thinking, it's 3rd trimester pregnancy time of your life ;-) 

As u go through your pregnancy you can feel the changes your body is going through and you know you will eventually get so big that your size will matter and it will get in the way of you doing things. 

For me it happens seriously over night, it's in my 3rd trimester and one day it's like I grew just enough that my size is now getting in the way of me doing things that, I swear I could do the day before. 

All of a sudden you can't see your feet, or ANYTHING from the top of your belly button down, and you could swear that just last night you could. 

There's things you can't do beside not see ANYTHING below your belly button like for example: roll over from one side to the other, I have to wake up to roll over in the middle of the night. When I'm sitting on the couch (or any kind of a chair) I can't just stand up, I have to scoot myself up to the edge and either hold onto something or put my weight on my knee to stand up. If I am sitting next to my husband he will help by pushing me (by my butt) to get me up lol :-) 

Getting dressed has becoming part of my work out plan and if something drops on the floor, you can forget about it. Crossing your legs or even just keeping your legs together seems like a distant memory. 

It seems like a long list, I haven't even put everything down and it seems long well, because it is. :-) 

Pregnancy is such an amazing thing but it definitely comes with sacrifices. Not only do us women have to sacrifice our mind, body and soul over to be pregnant BUT our husbands or partners also have to sacrifice not having their wives for 9 months, because face it, once we see that little pregnant sign EVERYTHING is about our pregnancy and this unborn child we are carrying. So husbands cut us a little slack and wives cut your husband a little slack. Pregnancy is an extremely stressful time in a couples life let alone if you are having any other struggles and stresses to go on top of it. Just know, once that baby is born you (or your wife) will start to go back to herself again. Of course she will be different because she just became a mom for the first, second etc. Time and things will be different but you will recognize her or yourself again ;-) 

Every pregnancy is different so don't think that just because this is the second time like for me that you know what's coming. For me this pregnancy has been a good pregnancy but completely different in every other way, my last pregnancy at this stage (33 weeks) I was still going to a Zumba class 3-5 times a week and was able to out last most people in the class, I was walking 2 miles a day. This pregnancy is sucking the energy out of me and my entire body hurts 90% of the day no matter what I do or don't do. It's been crazy but I know it'll all be worth it. 

So again, husbands cut your wives a little slack and wives, cut your husbands some slack ;-) 

Thanks for reading, 

Tara Cancilla 

Just speaking the truth about what happens during (some) pregnancies, I can only speak from experience and I hope to be able to relate to others so that you don't feel alone. I know some of you are having better pregnancies and some are worse and I hope that no matter how your pregnancy that you and your baby stay healthy and that you both come out of this healthy and happy :-) 

Maternity photos are in.

Maternity photos are in and I'm in love with them. 

The other day I said to watch out for them and well they are up and are a huge hit. 

Photo by:Samantha Stockwell 

This one has to be my fav, Kaili'a is actually smiling, you can see the baby bump really well, Joseph looks freaking handsome and I think I'm looking pretty good as well :-) 

Being a photographer myself, I always encourage women to get some kind of maternity photos done, you can dress your body in so many ways to flatter your belly. A tip I give is to get your photos done in your 7th to early 8th month, anything before that, you might be too small to really get a good shot and anything after that you can bank on being too swollen. The magic timing is between the 7th and 8th month. 

Photo by: Samantha Stockwell 

Have fun with your photos to ease your mind, Kaili'a thought it was funny that mommy and daddy were showing their bellys (we tried getting her to do it but that just wasn't happening) so she smiled and it was an easy shot to get. 

Photo by: Joseph Cancilla

It was so much fun taking our maternity photos this time around because we had Kaili'a apart of them. It's crazy how different the feeling was this time was just having Kaili'a be in the photos with us and the belly. I was more excited to have Kaili'a be involved then I was to just take them. 

Photo by: Brody Stockwell

I like to make sure to get just a photo of the hubby and I with the baby bump, it's a fun time to take photos as a couple and be invoked together. 

I have taught my brother and youngest sister to take photos so we were lucky that they were around to help us and to be able to take them while Kaili'a was napping during our couple photos. Gave us that extra little time to bond, it's crazy how doing a little mini couple photoshoot can just do wonders for a relationship :-) 

If you are pregnant I encourage you to get maternity photos done, I know it can feel like the most ridiculous time because let's face it, you're huge, but you'll cherish them so much in the long run. It's okay if you didn't do it with your precious babies, make it a family event and really take the time to find something that flatters the belly, and makes you feel beautiful. No matter what size you are, you are beautiful so embrace it and capture this amazing time in your life. 

Thank you for Reading, 

Tara Cancilla 

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Only 2 more months

Only 2 more months until little Kj arrives, I can hardly believe it's that soon. With this pregnancy I knew I was pregnant, well basically when it happened, and so even though I knew from like day 1 I still feel like this pregnancy is just flying by. 

Having a busy, busy toddler to keep up with has definitely helped with moving time along. I'm noticing though how much harder this pregnancy is just because I have another child to run after. 

My first pregnancy had it's ups and downs like every pregnancy but I was going to Zumba classes 3-5 times a week, and was able to out last most the class. I was walking everyday at least a mile or more, this pregnancy is a completely different story. 

I don't know if it's because I'm pregnant with a boy this time and he is just sucking all the life and energy out of me, or if having a toddler is really just that much harder on my body. With Kaili'a I didn't have anyone to keep up with, play with, hold, or things like that. But I haven't been very active at all with this pregnancy, Zumba classes are a joke because I can't even get through half the class and then afterwards I am so completely exhausted for the remainder of the day. Walking was going well at first but now, forget walking very far because my body can't handle it. 

My body hurts in ways it did not last time, it hurts to pick things up that are too heavy (my daughter is getting to that point and it kills me that I can't hold her as much as she would like me to) and it hasn't made having a toddler that loves to be creative with what she plays with "aka, putting EVERYTHING all over the floors" and I can't reach things to put them away. 

I can't believe the differences though from being pregnant with a girl and now with a boy. With my first pregnancy I ended up gaining 36lbs and food was just amazingly delicious until the end. This pregnancy, so far, I've only gained 15lbs and I don't have half the appetite I did with my last pregnancy. 

I guess I'll be able to have an idea what I'm having with future pregnancies before we find out lol 

Even though it's been a struggle this past few months I can not wait to have our little baby boy. Being a stay at home mom can be extremely challenging at times but it's also extremely rewarding and I love that I have been blessed to be a mom. I learn new things about myself everyday ;-) 

Stay tuned for our maternity photo shoot we have! It's going to be so much fun having Kaili'a involved! 

Thank you for Reading, 

Tara