Any Anxious Mommies out there? I know I’m one of them. While I was pregnant I lost two extremely close family members about a month in a half apart. I don’t know if it was because of the emotions and hormones of being pregnant or if it really caught me off guard, but since then my anxiety has been sky high.
Being a first time mom I know anxiety is just something that comes with the role, I mean its something I’ve never done before, I’m not close to family and babies don’t come with a manual. Of course it’s normal to be anxious. I’m also a stay at home mom and sometimes being home all day can just make it that much worse.
I have been procrastinating about doing any type of action steps to start getting through it. Fear can be very paralyzing and if you let it eat at you the harder it comes to face it.
Yesterday I said ENOUGH! I’m sick of living like this. I hate that my heart races when even the thought of leaving my child with anyone to babysit. It has nothing to do with other people as it does to myself. I took a step today, and it felt good.
My husband and I have a gym membership and they have a daycare. I’ve been in and checked them out a couple of months ago but just couldn’t bring my daughter in. Until today! My husband, I and our daughter went to the gym and guess what? It wasn’t as hard as I thought it would be, I didn’t freak out, Kaili’a had such a good time and I was able to work out with my husband and it felt good to let go.
Driving to the gym I thought I was going to throw up but after I handed Kaili’a over and walked out of the “kid center” doors I felt relieved. It feels amazing to take the first step in over coming a fear or weakness. It wasn’t easy but you know what? I needed to do it.
Some people might not think its a very big deal but to me it was a break through. You never know what people are going through or why they are hesitate to do certain things. Be patient and take the time to understand someone, especially if you are trying to help them progress.
p.s. My husband says he’s not worried or anxious. Yet he was the one spying on our daughter while she was at the “kids center” 
I hope this speaks to those first time moms and dads that might be anxious, worried or whatever it is you are struggling with. You are not alone, talk to someone because I can just about promise you others are going through something similar. None of us are perfect and we all learn differently.
Thank you for reading,
“Live Life todaybecause yesterday is gone and tomorrow may never come.”
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